Seeing my friend of 16 years get married to Mr. Right this weekend: A+++
Having a wonderful weekend away with my honey, while the offspring get spoiled by the King and Queen of Yes: A+++
Losing our camera one week before Stacey and Mick’s wedding: F
Having you pick my bridesmaid dress for the big day: A
Borrowing ear bling from Sarah to override my fashionista deficiency (and to save some moolah): A
Taking two pictures with my the camera on my phone: C to find that both pics are cloudy: D and my eyes were closed: F
Waking up Monday morning from A+++ weekend, stepping on Lucy realizing that I gained two pounds from the A+++ weekend: D. Realizing that it was worth it and that it wasn’t more…cause I ate like a queen: B+
This whole report card grading isn’t exactly what I do in my daily life, or is it? When I sat down to think and pray about it, I realized just how shewed my grading scale is. I’ll give you a couple of examples.
Taking the boys to a play date at the pool, good Mom report card: A
Going grocery shopping and buying fruits and veggies: A+ and Dove chocolates: D of which I shared one with the female shopping cart collector, and we compared our quotes and the chocolate melted in our mouths: B
After packing my groceries into my sexy minivan today, I scanned my receipt to applaud myself for spending $66.48 and “saving” (is it really saving if you’re spending money?) $28.81 . Today I told myself: B+ but have formerly graded myself an F when I’ve forgotten my coupons at home.
Then I come home to put away the bargain groceries and vacuumed my entire home: A but I didn’t get the non-carpeted floors: B or the stairs: C
I checked on my friend that works at Discovery Headquarters (thank God she’s not in the buliding!) scheduled a home repair and talked to a friend while making dinner. Triple tasking…that’s gotta get the A, right? Well I burned the dinner: C-, yelled at my kids for interrupting the phone conversation: D- and am still not showered…it’s 5pm people: F.
Then Scrabble with my kiddos: B+
I’m someone who struggles with a performance based acceptance of self. I am growing more and more grateful for this never-ending, difficult-to-capture, grace gift that God offers me every day. Not just on the days when I think I’m “making the grades”.
God loves you and me as we are, not by how many ministries we build, or how many coupons we clip, or how many people like us, or how many blog posts we publish, or how many times we’re class mother or how many good deeds we do.
God just loves me for being me. God just loves you for being you. He says so, “I have loved you with an everlasting love…” (Jeremiah 31:3) There’s no perfect performance to dazzle God with. He just plain ol’ loves you. It’s time again, that I put away my self-grading report card and accept God’s full love, grace, today.
Do you struggle with a performance based grading scale too? What areas to you seem to grade the most?
So true, I do this all the time, but never really thought of it this way. Thanks again for great insight as always!
And boy you looked like a hot mama at that wedding! (even in a blurry picture with your eyes closed!)
Well, at least you made dinner, we ate left overs as I am worn out from a big day. I never give my self an A and some say I should so I can understand your scale. But, I try, and I am trying to accept that at least I try to be a good mom, wife, person! That is all that matters I guess. Hope you had some peanut butter and jelly to make sandwiches for dinner instead!